Most of us tell our spiritual story as a search. We were looking for meaning, we found God, and we made a good decision. It is a flattering version, because it puts us at the center. Scripture tells it the other way around. Left to ourselves, we did not drift toward God. We drifted away, building our own lives and calling it freedom. Even our religious moments were often a way to keep Him at a safe distance while feeling decent about ourselves.
Then come two of the most hopeful words in the Bible. Paul describes people dead in their trespasses, unable to save themselves, and then says, But God. Rich in mercy, moved by great love, He made us alive with Christ. Romans adds the timing. God did not wait for us to improve. He showed His love while we were still sinners, when Christ died for us. That means your story with God does not begin with your effort. It begins with His initiative. The shepherd goes after the lost sheep. The father runs to the son. If you feel too far gone, remember that distance is exactly where His pursuit starts. Stop rehearsing your search, and receive the Savior who came looking for you.
Romans 5:8 (ESV): "but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."
Ephesians 2:4-5 (ESV): "But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ, by grace you have been saved,"